[may 30, 2007]

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i'm hurt.

i'm sad.

the hell?

you don't even give a damn.

ugh.

i soo like wanna die everytime i cry.

like at this moment.

tears roll down my cheeks.

gives me pain evertime i think of it.

what should i do?

when all i can do is think of you.

i'm sick and tired of all these.

damn it.

why do i even have to go through this gawd damn heartache.

when you're all happy and enjoying life.

good for you though.

i'm glad somehow.

but why me?

i'm alone.

and it's miserable.

my life is so f*cked up.

i still love you.

you don't even got a clue.

oh well you don't have to know it anyway.

as if things would change...

it's been quite a long time since the split.

that's why i'm just keeping it to myself.

don't wanna bother you about this crap.

i'm such a loser to be writing this.

you won't be able to read this ayway.

you won't even care if you do so.

oh gawd.

i suck.

yeah, i know.

but whatever.

I Love You So by Natalie :)

Ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh

From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying to not let it show
But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

You can san say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Please know this
I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Akon ft. Candance "Don't Matter" Remix

Verse 1:
I been writing you this letter
Wanna say boy, that i love you so
They just don't know
Even though they try to tell me
Forget about you, 'cuz you're locked away
My love won't change

Hook:
And maybe I'll wait, ten thousand days
Whatever it takes, to see your face
Wherever you are, no matter how far
Can't tear us apart, you got my heart

Chorus:
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
We gon' fight, oh yes, we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight, fit for out right to love, yeah
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe

So boy I;m making you this promise
I wanna do this, never leave you no, you go my word
And I can't even for a minute imagine my life without you in my world

Hook:
And maybe I'll wait, ten thousand days
Whatever it takes, to see your face
Wherever you are, no matter how far
Can't tear us apart 'cuz you got my heart

Chorus:
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
We gon' fight, oh yes, we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight, fit for out right to love, yeah
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe

Bridge:
This love that we have they will never know
Missing you so bad and the tears flow
I'll be waiting right here, why did you have to leave?
So hard when you're away from me
But I'm a big girl (?) and i know I will see you soon
Boy, I'm counting down the days just to be with you
DOn't matter where you are, they can't break us apart
You know you will always have my heart

Chorus:
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe
We gon' fight, oh yes, we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight, fit for out right to love, yeah
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no
Cuz i got you babe

<3 i miss you kiddo! :)

happy

well well, i've been enjoying my life lately. :) tomorrow's gonna be the day. :) graduation day!! :) ugh. i'm a grown up now. hate it. :)) haha. lolz. :p anyway, i'm pretty much contented with my life. :) i live to laugh and to love. :) haha. :) sweet. :) oh anyways, i gotta chill. :p till next time. :)

<3 you magnify my other half. :)

healing begins

so sick of love songs, so tired of tears. so done with wishing, you were still here.. </3

i'm twisted cause one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, on the other side i wanna breakdown and cry </3

it's so hard to lose the one you love to finally have to say goodbye, you try to be strong but the pain keeps holding on and all that you can do is cry.. </3

now i sit all alone wishing all my feelings was gone, i gave my best to you, nothing for me to do but have one last cry.. </3

it may look like i'm happy but people who know me they know that i'm not doing so well.. </3

i try to smile so the hurt won't show, tell everybody i was glad to see you go.. </3

<3 its always been you.. :)

*o6*